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if i said the dream where i was naked was weird... today i had the weirdest dream of my life... and in a continuous note... it was really meaningful for me
so... the people in my dream... i think i never had dreams that included them so far... they were my uncle and my aunt and my cousins... they are family, but i don't understand why there weren't mom dad and my brother... anyway maybe i know and i don't wanna share... so, we were somewhere in their house, i couldn't recognize the room... but we were there, talking... i mean me and my cousins... and out of the sudden, like in eliade's novels, we all agreed that something evil and dangerous was among us... and someone shouted... he's got a gun, get on the floor!!! and so i did, with no arguing or even looking where the villain was... and then there was this unexpected gun fire noise... i don't know why but i was feeling that if you are on the ground, you couldn't get shot... and so someone proved me wrong... and i felt a deep sharp pain in my back, crushing some of my ribs... and i felt that i couldn't get up... in a weird way...the first feeling was outch! it hurts... then i felt numb... and then i felt a growing pain in that place. and i couldn't get up, i felt hold in that place that i was lying... and i asked someone to call for an ambulance...and i was calling for the ambulance but they just put me to hold until they make the connection...no one else seemed to track them down... and then i remember that i shouted for my brother, he called for the ambulance too, but he told me that they said him that i was not an emergency... so i called again... and this time a woman with a lazy voice answered... she asked me what my emergency was... and i told her to send an ambulance at my uncle's house she then asked me what happened and i said that i was shot and i was on the ground, couldn't get up. and she asked how much time passed since the gunfire... and i was so shocked...why on earth would she ask me something like that... i was having a febrile state with racing thoughts that moment... i said about 15-20 minutes ago... and what stunned me is that she just replied me 'ah, it's all ok, your wound is already starting to close. now let me handle the real emergencies. bye!'. again...i was so shocked... and when i looked at my right, my aunt was giving me the 'you should have expected that' look (can't figure out where she appeared from)... and still... no one asked me if there were as an exit wound when they told me that i'll be ok soon... or if i am bleeding, or what am i thinking... or worry for me... it was just like i was some kind of extraordinary specie and that nothing bad could happen to me... and i remember just some quick thoughts i had while i was waiting for people to call 112... hospital, surgery, i have a bullet inside of me, who shot me, why he shot me and why is that angle so stupid, there is no exit wound so the bullet is still inside, surgery, there is a warm painful sharp bullet inside of my ribs or lungs, what internal damage he did to me...

every thought and every action has a very clear explanation now... and i am starting to see the bigger picture in my life