mentally challenged

i am the kind of girl who likes to analyze... what happens in my life, i like to think i'm in control of it... if i'm not, i want to get it in my control... i like to lead... but sometimes i feel just fine being leaded, as long as it goes with my beliefs. i think i can be a good leader...but not a great one... because i tend to care too much about others beliefs, and i want to keep the peace and well being in the team... but it's not always about leading, it's about co-working... making a team effort... and i find it cruel when you are forced to work with people who are just not your working type... i mean...i like it all to be logic... but working with someone with no flexibility in his thought makes me break my limits... or at least i know i can do better.

i used to think that if i want to get something or someone of my mind, i just need to work hard and make it all about working. in the beggining, it worked, and it gaved me a huge satisfaction... but after a couple of weeks of hard work and good results, work became part of me, and my hidden thoughts popped back in my daily routine... i even feel like i am wasting so much time... a while ago i wasn't able to work properly, now i think i broke one psychilogical barrier... many more to come, i'm sure...