the games

when you say 'game', where does your mind stop?

the games we play.... the games that play us...
the players...
the team mates... the opponents...
the victories... the looses...
the winners... the losers...
the king... the queen... the rooks... the bishops... the knights... the pawns...
the Muppet... the string puller...
the dummies...

every time i think on that word it all ends up in.... yes, manipulation... there are these games where you have to play by the rules, follow the steps, be the first one at the finish line, play it all fair... and i think that every game should be like that... but it's the players.... yes it's a player's intervention that changes it all... you know, like when you play chess... you anticipate your opponent's next move and you act according to your guess... if you are a good strategist you might be the winner in the end... still there is luck and hope, and players that play by that rule...like in a poker game... bluffing for their hand is not so good... still there can be a lot of strategy and tactics in there...
anyway, i was thinking in people and how I relate with them... because these days, i was feeling manipulated and played... and not just by one person... but by many... and by many close ones... is it because i look innocent? or is it because i am trying to be nice that people use me? do they even realize that what they do or say might hurt me? do they notice me as 'the queen' or am i just another 'pawn'? and i admit it that i let myself fooled and manipulated ... though i am not naive... and all of this because? because i am a sucker for love and affection and in my try of getting them, i focus so much on the others that i can't even realize what they are doing to me... and it's so sad when you see the truth and the strings...
so no more feeling like a dummy... no matter how much you'll play me, I'll break my strings one day... so enjoy it for now... cause I'll sure have my toys that day.

Game on!